Hard days without a place to feel safe……

I no longer have a Dom in my life, after so many years together……..it is rather difficult to image I will ever feel those feelings again.  

I continue to communicate with others……he is out there somewhere. I have faith…..Yoga classes are helping me be OK with me again.  Need to be OK to trust, OK not to be pushed, OK to know that yes….I deserve the Natural Gentleman Dom my soul yearns for.  

I need to to be able to Trust what he says is the Truth…Communicate…Safety…Communicate…..His fetishes match mine….Communicate….If I meet Him In a public place…..Instant Chemistry is There…..for Both of Us.  

I keep walking forward….life is what it is. I always accepted him for him. Sad how it ended with false accusations and me wondering was there any truth in what he told me in so many years? Valued his friendship more than anything but like him, it is long gone from my heart. He left behind a damaged soul….it happens when you care for someone.  Keep smiling! Life is too short…..I am taking care of me Right Now. What a spectacular feeling! 

.I know what I want…….I know what I need……I know what I desire…….He is out there……When I meet Him…..Our Souls will Dance and I will feel safe…..I know that feeling…..I will feel it again. 

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